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Hell yes ill check out crane center then, thanks!

Ty! I was honestly on the fence about it. Its not confirmed that ill get both yet so ill just let him know i dont want it. I looked into crane center a while ago but they didnt take the bullshit niche fringe insurance i was on, ill check again cause i forgot what they take, im on united now. Also just for informational reasons if you dont mind sharing what specifically makes you not reccomend him? 

No yeah youre right about how the classification doenst really matter at the end of the day, its nice to have to be able to succinctly describe things but thats all it does. In trying to compartmentalize and understand everything going on and understand who/what/why everyone is ive found myself getting caught up with the role labels and similar because it feels like something i need to sort out concretely and something that everything needs to fit nicely into when in reality its just whatever works works. I realize this its just a matter of applying it lol

The example of the one formed from recent trauma sounds similar to how it functions for him i think, yeah. Again changing exact details for privacy but for example in source he hates trucks but i/we have no problem with trucks, we did get run over by a bus though. So instead of hating trucks out of trauma like in source he hates buses out of trauma if that makes sense. I was traumatized similarly to the source character and used him a lot for vent art and what have you while it was still very fresh so itd make sense that he formed as what i think would be considered a trauma or anger holder with slightly shifted ways of thinking to suit the needs

Right no thats what i was thinking. Im sure he'll go over it with me more in the future and ill ask him about that, id hate to hinder my chances you know. My plan is to ask him if the full with ul and v-nectomy (thanks i seriously did forget what it was called) is possible cause its the only option for me but the question of the hysto then would come in and i dont even know if he does that or would be willing to do it or if itd be covered by my insurance. Hes only offering this because he said itd be entirely free with my insurance to do it now, so if i can get the ul and everything free thatd be dope but i have my doubts about that happening considering it seems far more intensive

No yeah since posting this ive come to realize its almost certainly not moods lol. Thank you though because your description did help me further solidify my realization! The way you described the angry one switching in is nearly identical to how mine feels (minus kind of irrelevant discrepancies like how mine is actually typically older, different mannerisms what have you). He was literally mid conversation with one of my friends last night when something made me come back and i wasnt interested in what he had been talking about at all and i had to wrap the conversation up for him which was dumb. But its like yeah thats very clearly not how a mood would work id imagine lol

Basically exactly how it feels for me too brother godspeed

Re: the top surgery FUCKING EXACTLY!!!

Shit thanks for reminding me i was literally gonna look into therapists tonight lol. Thank you this does help slightly

The thing is hes technically a trans doctor he works with trans people and like aids patients i think? Hes just kind of slow to be honest no nicer way to put it

If he isnt receptive i may just have to slime him out joke joke im joking dont ban me

Im in dallas which before anyone complains its really not as hard as people make it out to be. The hardest part has been that i had some fringe bullshit insurance for a while that nobody had even heard of

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Come on man

Now why would i do that

Women rape people surprisingly frequently man. I think two years ago now and i didnt at the time because i only found out it happened after the fact because it was during a sleepover while i was asleep. also due to that i obviously dont know the full extent of what went on you know

No yeah youre 1000℅ right. Ive always been a very angry person and that only got way worse which like you said is very normal. But because the anger is more or less justified my brain feels as if the violence too is justified. Since this incident my sense of justice has become way stronger and way more skewed, i forgot to mention this but i get mad at people who just behave like alison did. For example she was emo so now i just hate all emo people and i recognize objectively that this is irrational but i have no clue how to stop it or frankly much of a will to because its completely justified to my brain. Sorry btw had to delete cause it formatted like shit fhe first time

LMFAO I DID 😭 i figured it was a parody thing of some kind. Ty for the full context of tiny fat chud rorschach lol

Shit youre probably right. That sucks. Thank you!

No conscious particular reason, no. I just seem to like them. I like A names and names that end in something like ey is what ive learned

I dont mind correcting people on paper but i know itd get grating in practice. But unlike how my old names gotten grating itd be a name i like and just the act of correcting people would be annoying. So i dunno maybe itd be different. Worth the annoyance?

Ive gravitated towards A names and i like the ey ending too but they dont necessarily both have to be there. I considered a name starting with Al because i think weird al is awesome but can only think of alfred & i dont like that one. 

Not a full family search but i have an ancestor who was in the american revolution but his name is just john. I saw a list of i think british soldiers from around that time when i was trying to name a character that i could refind. Good idea ty :D

My friend actually suggested carmen but my OTHER friend has a dog named carmin and she owns it better than any other creature to ever walk this earth

Was on my list 🙂‍↕️ it was a meme though for like a week when i first started looking so that steered me away from it to be honest. Probably unfair of me so it wouldnt hurt to revisit it

I actually had adrian on my list for a minute but dropped it for whatever reason. I could revisit that