u/Princess868

Yeah I’ve been diagnosed with GAD and take medication for it and smoke weed for it and it’s still so bad some days. I put myself into such a bad panic attack last night it woke ny boyfriend up and had to comfort me. Thankfully I don’t have those often but it was like the impending doom would never stop

You know this has me thinking. My partner had BPD and even with an instance tonight, I told him the one important thing I wanted to do was take a shower together. He went out for drinks at a friends bar and kept pushing the time. I feel like all I did was ask him when he would be home and if I should go ahead and shower or not. He then proceeds to come home, and tells me what I did was controlling (I had sent him a video of our dog when I asked where’s dad and asked when he was coming home and if I should shower with or without him becaude a friend was supposed to come over later) and even if I didn’t mean it like that. We got in the shower together and he was a little silly and we laughed but there was no touching whatsoever. I tell him this, He then proceeded to tell me that I am uptight and should communicate or just touch him if I wanted a sexy shower. The thing is he has sensory issues so sometimes I never know if he wants to be touched or not. He said he doesn’t find showers sexy with partners. He tells me I took the sexy out of tonight becaude it was my problem that I didn’t communicate that I wanted to be touched. He said he now feels like he walks on eggshells around me, but I honestly feel like I have to walk on them around him.

Maybe I am the problem and I know I have things to work on. But i don’t know. I don’t want to leave him but sometimes I just feel like he doesn’t listen to me or see my side of things. And I’m honestly scared he won’t ever. We’ve had such a good uprise in our relationship and now we are fighting again everyday. It’s like a cycle sometimes. I just want us to be happy.

I’m sorry for the long post

Your comments are still hurtful and not needed. I have actually been the same weight for about 2/3 years now, so you know nothing about me and what I have gone through or my thoughts on my body, as they are my opinion.

Being called fat is a very hateful and ugly word. Everyone is beautiful in their own way as it should be. You have no idea what I look like and what my portions are on my body just like another user commented.

Again I was just asking a simple question about birth control and weight effectiveness. Not about how my body looks and if I’m “fat” and should lose weight.

I didn’t delete your comment. As you can see you are getting a lot of downvotes so clearly i am not the only person who thinks your comments are hurtful and not useful.

I was simply asking a question about the effectiveness of my pill, not about my weight. I already have planned on losing weight before posting this but am weight till after my vacation as I want to enjoy it no matter my body/weight.

Also I do not consider myself fat. I am chubby yes but not considered fat to myself which is my opinion.

But please consider being kind to people instead of calling them fat and suggesting things to them as you do not know what other people are going through and what they are struggling with.

Thank you and have a nice day.